Thursday, November 13, 2008

To be well or not to be well?

Don't tell anyone but I am somewhat taking a "personal day" today. I could say I don't feel well (which I did say in a couple emails to professors, wondering what I missed in class today). What does it feel like to feel well anyway? Does it mean if you can keep your eyes open? Does it mean good to the extreme like you could run miles and miles because you have so much energy? Maybe it means if your not vomitting. Or, it just means that you can breathe clearly through your nose. I'm not really sure. I think the term "well" or "unwell" varies from person to person. As for me, I can keep my eyes open for the most part, though I am contemplating making more coffee. I don't really feel like running but all bodily passageways seem unblocked and "well" for the most part. I had a good fall break. I didn't get a whole lot of rest but it was nice to get out of town. I got to see some friends and make some new ones. I actually felt ready to go back to school when I got home which is weird. I've been pretty good this year. My boyfriend even told me that he was impressed with how dedicated and good I've been, going to all my classes and getting good grades. I guess it's what I've always done. Always tried anyway. So maybe I'm a slacker taking this day off. I'm also an artist that gets tired of being in such a structured lifestyle all the time. It's funny, when my life feels crazy and out of control, I feel like I need more structure. But then when I get it, I don't want it so much. C'est la vie. It's a beautiful day though, I better go enjoy it!